It's my life

OK. Right here, right now, this moment is so odd to me. I'm going to stop doing what I do. I'm going to stop looking for a clue. I have so many things in my mind; I have so many feelings rounding inside. I'm going to forget who I was once. I finally surrender, I'm going to let go… I'm just myself and no one else's to own. From now on I will think of me first, from now on I'll get to do what pleases me the most. From now on I choose to live being hard and cold as would a bitch, because finally I decided to live happily.

I got tired of loosing myself. I got tired of pleasing everyone else…. But me.
I will keep on the path I choose, there's so much more for me to do.
Let me be and back the fuck off. Let me go to explore the world.
Let me for once search for myself, I want to stop feeling like hell,
'cause so much feelings can drive you nuts, give me my space, leave me alone.

I just don't care more for what you might think; let's not pretend that you like me.
I wouldn't even try to please you more, because it doesn't matter how hard I try I'll never be good enough for you. So you know what? I would not even care to get mad at you at all, because it is a waste of time, of emotion and thoughts.
Well I don't care what you want from me, I couldn't care less of what you want me to be. I just am and I WON'T change for you.

I will stop to live in a fantasy. I will no longer be awake and dream. I will leave the fairy tales where they belong, in the bad written version of movies and books. I will stop wishing the happily ever after, and come back to Earth. I hate the time when you make me believe that life was easy and fair, when all I have gotten from you was a living hell.


I refuse to keep on living life like this, when the most that I get are some hypocrites' faces. I will share my life with people that are real. Those are the ones who willingly give their selves, the ones you can feel that you are peaceful and safe with. There's nothing else to tell you, I think I said it all, you might have understand the meanings of my words.

So I'll have no regrets from now on, suddenly I feel relieved from carrying this pain and anger, it was too heavy this burden for me. No longer I'll be mad at myself or feel guilty of my actions. It's my life, this is what I get, only one to live.

From now own I will be free; from now on I get to be me. I won't search for happiness any longer. 'Til now I didn't realize that all this time I had it in me. I just had to choose to live it, instead of seeking it, because NO ONE can really make you happy, but yourself. I just have to decide it. I just did. Back the fuck off and let me BE.